to abandon; to give up on; to desert
sick person; patient; invalid
to call; to summon; to send for; to call together
verge of death; dying moments
I, myself; one-self; by one-self; even I; even one
to consult with; to discuss; to confer; to deliberate
else; in addition; on top of that; furthermore; further; besides
to expose; to disclose; to lay bare; to confess
subtle; delicate; difficult; complex; doubtful; questionable
self-centeredness; self-centredness; selfishness; egotism; egoism
your native country; your hometown; my home country (i.e. Japan); countryside; country; (arch.) daimyo's territory (Edo period)
to scatter; to sprinkle; to spray; to lavish (money, charm, etc.)
several years; a few years
merit; success; meritorious deed; achievement; accumulated experience
to get torn; to tear; to rip; to be broken off (of negotiations, etc.); to break down; to collapse
to use up all one's strength
what (e.g. "what rudeness"); what (something) is like
imperfect; incomplete; faulty; defective
unshapely; ill-formed; misshapen; awkward; clumsy
tousled; shaggy (hair); scraggly (beard); dishevelled; disheveled; unkempt
outward appearance; apparent
to let out a cry; to shout
to (call and) stop; to call (someone) to stop; to hail (e.g. a taxi)
dubious; puzzled; suspicious
to wind; to coil; to envelope; to shroud; to outflank; to skirt
pardon; forgiveness; exemption; permission
request; favor; favour; reliance; dependence; trust
coherence; order; focus; point
self-condemnation; self-reproach; self-accusation
to resolve; to ready (oneself); to make up one's mind
to advance; to move forward; to carry forward (plans, work, etc.); to proceed with; to raise; to elevate
sensitive; susceptible; impressionable
heartbroken thoughts; heartrending grief; overwhelming sorrow
at the same time as; while; as well as (multiple roles)
to tire of; to lose interest in; (arch.) to be satisfied; (arch.) to enjoy; (arch.) to do adequately
to run counter to; to go against; to disobey; to infringe
to press down; to hold down; to pin down; to suppress (feelings, disorder, opposition, etc.); to repress
component; factor; item (e.g. in list); element (e.g. in array); member (e.g. data structure)
adaptation; accommodation; conformity
this is why; this means; it is the case that